I THINK I'M CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you hel me?

im going crazy people i have some rely important issues going on im my life first of all i am gay... secondly ive lost all my real friends because they treated me badly mentally and psychically... 3rd i cant tell anyone yet and its driving me crazy!!!!!!! i have friends online and i cant see them face to face or a daily basis... what can i do to stall myself from bursting out in tears or running away or the most dramatic.... thanks people...